Chapter One of My Life. I walk down the street. There's a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost. I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. Chapter Two. I walk down the same street. There's a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I'm in the same place! But it isn't my fault. And it still takes a long time to get out. Chapter Three. I walk down the same street. There's a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it there.
Today I looked into my mother's sad gaze As she watched me try on clothes. Her voice soft, She stated how much weight I have lost. Silence. She questions, It's from being in marching band right As if To convince herself. "Yeah" But the silence that follows Along with the look in her eyes Tells a story Of a different, shared, truth. 9/25/17
Have you ever Cried so hard it hurts to breathe? The sharp intakes of air Burn your lungs But you wish you had the strength to choke on it. Raw pain. Gripping the covers hard enough you hope you will pass out. Screams. Pain trapped deep within your heart and mind. I want nothing more. I want. Nothing more. 08/30/17
We do not love. We lust. A normal feeling among humans. Yet we give way to possibility. We have titles. We have emotions we play upon. Maybe its more than lust But we know the truth. We will pretend As our lips meet That there is more. I am sad There isnt more. 08/09/17
We kissed Under the stage lights With the most beautiful music. A stranger, You are and forever will be. Your lips were soft And your face was sweaty. We danced together for hours. My hips swaying against yours. Your arms wrapped around me tightly, As if to never let go. Even for just a little while, It was as if we had known each other forever. I put my hand over yours As we swayed in time. Your head resting on my shoulder. We do not love each other. But in that moment it was as if we cou