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A slow painful death

Today I looked into my mother's sad gaze As she watched me try on clothes. Her voice soft, She stated how much weight I have lost. Silence. She questions, It's from being in marching band right As if To convince herself. "Yeah" But the silence that follows Along with the look in her eyes Tells a story Of a different, shared, truth. 9/25/17

On the bad nights

Have you ever Cried so hard it hurts to breathe? The sharp intakes of air Burn your lungs But you wish you had the strength to choke on it. Raw pain.  Gripping the covers hard enough you hope you will pass out. Screams. Pain trapped deep within your heart and mind. I want nothing more. I want. Nothing more. 08/30/17

Boyfriend

We do not love. We lust. A normal feeling among humans. Yet we give way to possibility.  We have titles. We have emotions we play upon. Maybe its more than lust But we know the truth. We will pretend As our lips meet That there is more. I am sad There isnt more. 08/09/17

Illenium

We kissed Under the stage lights With the most beautiful music. A stranger, You are and forever will be. Your lips were soft And your face was sweaty.  We danced together for hours. My hips swaying against yours. Your arms wrapped around me tightly,  As if to never let go. Even for just a little while, It was as if we had known each other forever. I put my hand over yours As we swayed in time. Your head resting on my shoulder.  We do not love each other. But in that moment it was as if we cou

Happy Birthday

Today, Is my birthday. I feel like i should be very happy. But for some reason I cant find it. In the gifts, the texts, the facebook posts. In the extra make-up i put on today Or the nice dress and heels. Not even In my favorite dance music. Something is missing. But i cant find the piece.  6/30/17